That has been our “theme” lately.
When the kids were little they seemed to GROW before my eyes. I never really SAW it happening….it just did. Miraculously.
Amazing. Wonderful. Godly stuff.
But it was more like, “Wow…Zeeks pants are WAY too short. He GREW a lot!!!”
But …you don’t NOTICE really the growth everyday.
Because it happens so slowly.
Like a granted wish….it just happens and THEN you SEE it.
I guess growing in any way is like that…..when you are in the middle of it- you don’t notice.
But- when you take a moment to really look….it is soooo evident.
Soooo “right in front of you”….
it is undeniable.
Sometimes we don’t even KNOW we are growing …till we have GROWN.
A couple of weeks ago, Jay was a part of the “2012 St. Augustine Pirate Gathering” parade.
ONE of his “jobs” he has is being a pirate on The Black Raven Pirate Ship. If a “job” consists of sword fighting, firing black powder cannons, face painting, and telling some-what dirty jokes. LOL.
I am beyond GRATEFUL for this amazing job for him. It really let’s his personality SHINE. So…it was a no-brainer when he said that the ship was going to be in the pirate parade.
he said they wanted the boys to be in the parade.
That is what we heard when he asked the boys.
I think Zeek said, “ Like…actually walk IN the parade? Not just GO?”
Yes son….like “walk IN the parade” and wear a pirate costume.
I thought Zeek was going to DIE. Like just drop right there.
He was not excited…his 9 year old brother was.
As we sat around the dinner table, I did everything I could to CONVINCE my 12 year old son that it would be “cool” to walk down the MIDDLE of the town wearing a prate costume and throwing candy.
“No really….it will be fun!”
“You friend Doug is doing it.”
“Your Dad does a lot for YOU…”
“It is good to get out of your comfort zone.”
“Your DAD is doing it, and he is UBBER COOL.”
“There will be LOTS of pirates in town….no one will even blink an eye”
“Don’t worry….we will MAKE you a great costume!” (You can imagine his face on THAT one!)
Lets just say…
And because I always want them to THINK that they are in SOMEWHAT control of decisions they make in their lives…
I said, “Ok…think about it. But…you should really do it. It will be fun. You have a few days to make the RIGHT decision. Which should be YES.”
He half-heartedly said OK….
A couple of days later I asked about his decision, he said “ I’m not really sure yet…I don’t know.”
My response, “Ok…I'm giving you a day to come to the decision to DO IT. Because you ARE doing it. But, Ill give you a day to “get there” on your own.”
He looked at me and said, “Alright….I’ll probably do it.”
Hahahaha. Smart boy. LOL.
The day of the parade came and I talked to him about “getting out of your comfort zone and being “in” your life.”
We talked about how in life you will come across situations where you will be uncomfortable. You will be put in situation where you really would just rather WATCH from the sidelines.
That is God pressing you.
That is him “pushing you” to be better, more ALIVE.
That is him inviting you to be more present and involved in your life.
And in the end….they had a GREAT time.
He loved every minute of it.
Needless to say….I felt like SUPERMOM.
He had conquered his fear and overcome his insecurities.
it happened….as it always does.
It was MY TURN.
This past Saturday the girls were going to be in the parade for The Dance Company. They were OVER THE MOON. They needed NO convincing. It was awesome. We were ready to go. You see….I was going to be in the back. Corralling kids. I was there strictly for “behind the scenes” participation.
I was PLANNING on walking behind all the girls to make sure we were all together. I was PLANNING on getting lost in the sea of little girls “pony-ing” their way down the middle of the street.
Then I was the one who “got pressed”.
I got there and at the very last minute they needed someone to walk IN FRONT and carry the sign.
Like WAY IN THE FRONT…..of everyone.
With. the. sign. that. everyone. looks. at.
Freakin” schooled AGAIN.
I didn’t want to be uncomfortable.
I didn’t want to be “out of my comfort zone”.
That is what I get for being all..”Put yourself out there. It is good to be “pressed” into doing something you are uncomfortable with.”
So…off I went.
Carrying the sign and WALKING the talk that I so love to talk.
It was a great experience, it showed me that no matter how much we THINK we have grown….because of what we can SEE.
The real growing happens so slowly that we are shocked when our “proverbial old clothes” don’t fit.
We grow bit by bit.
Experience by experience.
Step by step
Even if those “steps” are taken right down the middle of the flippin’ town, carrying a huge sign, in front of 1000’s of people.
It also taught me that no matter when or where God chooses to “press” us….
If we choose to take those steps….
We will be rewarded.
If we choose to walk the talk…
we will be MORE alive.
And that will be evident in our lives….
even when we are standing still.
Live. Love. Laugh. Learn.