The last month has been INTENSE.
started a JOB(a few days a week)
my Dad had surgery.
Needless to say….
We have been “Out of the LOOP”..so to say.
We have been OFF our schedule.
I have noticed that when things got CRAZY this last month-I just wanted to sleep.
Like a STRESS OVERLOAD.
I am COMMING BACK,
turning over a new leaf.
I have felt sooooo UNLIKE myself.
This weekend I am putting the final touches on our schoolroom and we are STARTING SCHOOL OFFICIALLY again on Monday.
I am SOOOOO ready to put my “teacher hat” on.
I love my kids but I cant STAND IT when they are “bored”.
And they have been “bored”.
By “Bored” I mean…..
They NEED to EXCERCISE their minds.
I have figured out(I know…I'm slow) that how THEY ACT is almost a direct reflection of how I FEEL.
When I am stressed…they argue.
When I am overwhelmed….they fight.
When I am tired…they fuss.
They can feel it from me.
They can feel I am not “into it”.
Today I read Proverbs 27:19……
19 As water reflects a face,
so a man's heart reflects the man.
This made me ask MYSELF some things…
Is my heart reflecting LOVE in my life????
Am I showing my kids what it is to STAY positive in the midst of STRESS?????
Am I showing them that even when things are hard, life is a BLESSING????
I am NOT.
Then I thought….
How FLIPPIN SELFISH am I???
I need to show my family, friends, and JAH
that I AM APPRECIATIVE,
and BLESSED to have THIS life…
even if at times it is filled with MORE stress than I think I can handle,
MORE tears than I think I can bear,
and more ARGUMENTS than I think I can settle.
I am STARTING FRESH.
Honoring GOD….and being APPRECIATIVE for what I do have.
As of right now….I am opening my heart,
being appreciative for what I do have
I am TOO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED.