Thursday, April 12, 2012

TRUTH…

Truth.

Sometimes it is so evasive.

Often, there is a fog that surrounds truth…you really have to strain sometimes to see it.

It is true for all of us in one way or another.

For me, my life and my blog ….I want the TRUTH to be easy to see.

Actually…I want it to RADIATE.

So…

when I KNOW that people think I “have it together”..I feel the NEED to set everyone straight.

when people assume I am super “hippy-nice”….I want to tell them I am NOT.

I mean…don’t get me wrong…I am nice enough.

Just not “hippy nice”…you know the “I love everyone, nothing bothers me, super go-with-the-flow” nice.

Nope…none of that in me..

at all.

My husband says I am stern. hard.

Don’t get me wrong…I LOVE my family, friends, people in general..but I have limits. and I am not afraid to say it.

See….the TRUTH is evasive , right????

And as far as “having it all together”….

ha.

I am as crazy as they come.

On a daily I think, “There is NO WAY I am capable or WORTHY of this task.”

I fail miserably- daily…and then ask for forgiveness.

My life in no way “flows easily”…sometimes- I feel like I am swimming upstream.

I am grateful to a pretty level-headed husband who can talk me from the ledge and then shine perspective on it afterwards.

and

I am thankful for friends and family who love me for me…no matter how much I struggle in life.

but mostly

I am humbled by the fact that

the

TRUTH

is…..

God knows my depths and knows exactly what I am DESTINED to do.

The TRUTH is…

I did LESS THAN NOTHING to deserve this life.

I actually did a pretty good job of trying to sabatoge it..and he still GAVE it to me.

Because….

the TRUTH is..

forgiveness is REAL.

I am proof.

Sometimes I am crazy, sometimes I am not worthy..

but

I

am

forgiven.

TRUTH.

3 comments:

Shane Brooks said...

Enjoy this temporary human experience, your journey is far from over. Those who battle themselves on the deepest of levels, will be blessed with a peace that passes all understanding.

Sanaa said...

Honest and real talk.

Anonymous said...

You know how you read blogs, and you feel like those people have it all together, and you wonder why you can't be that way? It's always nice to hear that they are just like we are. :) I love your blog. Vicki