It enveloped me so quickly that I almost held my breath.
In that OTHER life, you know…the one I lived BEFORE.
Before I became…
a true wife
a taxi driver
a front yard farmer
and all all around BUSY freakin’ person….
In THAT life I had only 1 thing…
I had the freedom to be completely selfish and do what I wanted..
and believe me…
It was fun…
I drew…things other than rainbows and bows.
I listened to music…without someone saying, “Mom…can we put it on MY station?”
I went where I wanted…when I wanted.
I fed myself…..only.
I only worried about ME.
And I painted….
I painted a lot actually.
Because I had TIME…and FREEDOM.
Then…. like a shell on the edge of the ocean…
THIS LIFE….pulled me in.
It pulled me with a force that I couldn’t fight.
I knew I was going where I was supposed to be.
My resting place.
I surrendered myself to the waves…..
I found God.
I found my soul mate.
I had 4 kids.
I started homeschooling.
I just rode the waves of my life knowing that I was ….BETTER.
I was a TRUER person….I was NOW…who I was supposed to be.
And I am so thankful for that.
I found myself engulfed in all things NOT ME.
I was engulfed in Jays music…
nursing babies and changing diapers
the kids schooling
taking care of the house.
I just accepted that I had LOST certain parts of myself.
I considered it a trade….a FREAKIN BRILLIANT trade.
It was a trade I made because I figured some day…
I could reclaim certain parts of myself.
The parts that were still there…but just buried under responsibilities, bills, work, school, and well….DAILY LIFE.
I figured one day I would pick up a paintbrush again.
And I did….over the last 15 years I have defiantly used my CRAFTY side for gift making and crafts.
But…It had been 15 years since I had taken a brush to a canvas.
And then this year I was trying to think of a “dance teacher” gift for our 3 super awesome Performance Ensemble teachers and I thought….
“Maybe I could paint them a picture. It has been a while but I might be able too.”
So I went to the Art store and bought 3 canvases and some watercolors and some brushes.
Then I found some inspirational ballerina pictures on the net and started painting.
This is what happened….
I felt a bit of myself come back.
I had unlocked something.
I was still in there….
Waiting for my moment.
It was liberating.
And then the most amazing thing happened after I posted the pics on FB and Instagram…..
They started selling.
Like hot cakes they are selling faster than I can paint them.
I have painted and delivered 5 so far and have been commissioned to paint 18 more.
What's even better????
This came at the perfect time.
ALL PROCEEDS ARE GOING TO FURTHER OUR DAUGHTERS DANCE EDUCATION.
Can you say “Best Fundraiser Ever”????
I discovered part of myself again…
I am raising money for the BEST CAUSE EVER…
I always knew the waves of this life would somehow bring me back to my starting place….