Sunday, November 29, 2009

Growing PAINS……

There is something WIERD going on in this house…

Its happening with Ezekiel.

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My sweet, sweet firstborn son is GROWING.

I’m not sure how to explain it except that he’s CHANGING!

He is normally very even headed and DIPLOMATIC.

But LATELY….he is SOOOOOO emotional.

And when I say EMOTIONAL…I mean EMOTIONAL!!!

Like “Freak out for no reason” emotional.

He seems to go from 0 to 100 in about a half second!!!!!

For example:

On Thanksgiving afternoon we were all ready to eat and we were making the kids plates.

It was Zeeks’ turn….

I said, “Give me your plate and walk with me…Ill make your plate.”

His NORMAL RESPONSE would have been “OK”.

But that day…..His response was, “Mom, I am 9 years old…I should be able to make my own plate. Why can’t I make my own plate? I WANT TO MAKE MY OWN PLATE…I’M 9 YEARS OLD!”

AND he was CRYING…..

I was SHOCKED.

WHO WAS THIS CREATURE???

And WHY was he CRYING?

I said…”Zeek, Stop crying.  You can make your own plate, Son.”

Jay and I had already started to “notice” that SOMETHING was going on.

Sometimes he just has been having  “EMOTIONAL” days.

“Cry about everything for NO REASON” days.

“Everyone is bothering me” days.

“Why do I have ALL the responsibility” days.

It is strange…all these changes are SPEEDING by way too fast.

Wasn’t it just this morning we were LEARNING our ABC’s?????

Wasn’t it JUST yesterday that I was changing  diapers and nursing????

Wasn’t it JUST last week that I was taking a pregnancy test….or 4????

Wasn’t it JUST  last year that we were  in  LOVE , selling burritos in the rain in Costa Rica with NO CHILDREN YET????

Apparently NOT!!!!!

Apparently Zeek was born 9 YEARS AGO and is CHANGING ….

Right NOW.

Like it

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NOT!

Its HAPPENING!!!!!

He CHANGING and NO AMOUNT of NOT WANTING HIM TO will change THAT.

Pray for me……I think I’m going to need it!!!!!

Blessings and Love…

Jana

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh Jana,
I am right there with you! I realized as I was happily driving down the road the other day that I was jolly because my house was very clean and I started thinking, it's easier and cleaner every year that goes by, wow- within the next couple of years, the kids will be older and able to maintain their mess better and was really happy....then the light bulb went off....and sadness filled my heart...those little feet and tiny fingers that I adore so much will only get bigger and bigger....its a trade I would rather NOT make! Love ya girl!
cryste

Anonymous said...

Since Zeek is the oldest, this is a total surprise for you. It was for me, too. Guess what, it happens about this age. At least it did with your Dad and Uncles. Tender hearted and so easily upset and feelings hurt. Cry at the drop of a hat. I don't know about the girls, not having any to go through it but check with your Mom. I'll bet you were the same way.
Hang in there. Enjoy them now while you have them all at home. My babies are all grown and quite often baby me now,
Love ya bunches. Mema

MOM said...

Oh, sweetheart, one of the hardest things is to see your kids growing into independent, self sufficient people. But it happens. All I can say is just encourage it don't fight it. It will happen with or without out. ENJOY - you will blink and they will all be in their 30's with kids of their own. If I could I would do it all over again.
LOVVVVVVVVVVE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!
Mom

Mom said...

OH,sweetheart, it's so hard to see your kids growing into independent self sufficient people. But it will happen with or without you. Encourage it, don't fight it. Someday you will blink and they will all be in their 30's with kids of their own.
LOOOOOOOOOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
Mom