What a blessing it is to visit sweet family and friends.
2 years is TOO LONG.
When I came to Texas I am always reminded of a life that I lived here.
The family, friends, experiences, and memories….the all come flooding back.
As I sat on the back porch of my Dads house last night, a feeling of such GRATITUDE came over me.
As My sister, Dad, Jay and I talked and reminisced I couldn't help but feel sooooooooo Blessed.
It is bitter sweet……
I love my family and love Texas.
I know that I am MEANT to be where I am.
I KNOW that my life is EXACTLY where it is supposed to be..
BUT- I cant help but feel a little PIT in my stomach.
A little ACHE.
My heart is heavy when I think about HOW MUCH I miss everyone.
At the same time …….I feel like I have such a great life in Florida.
I just wish Florida was the CITY next to Texas.
I wish that I could ALWAYS be here for the MEMORY MAKING.
I wish I was always here for the stories, laughs and get-together.
I miss my parents and can’t even imagine HOW they handle their daughter being sooo far away.
As I get older I realize more and more what a CRAZY CHILD I was.
At 19 I was a rebel who just wanted to GO.
Not to GET AWAY from them….just to GET AWAY.
See something new….like Florida.
It makes me SCARED.
What if I have a “rebel child”???
oh LORD …PLEASE let my children STAY CLOSE.
I don't know If my heart could take it.
I can see it in my Fathers eyes…….It HURTS.
So…as I take it all in and spend 10 days in Texas on vacation, I have learned to TRULY appreciate all the memories made and all the laughter and LOVE that we can gather up.
I put it safely in my heart ….so that when I am IN my life in Florida, I always carry them with me.
Bitter sweet….Bitter sweet it is.